Vasku:

Oh and Emilia is out because she saw nightmares the whole night.
Something about her mom dying and stuff. She's not talking much... She's locked away in her room.

Vasku:

Sorry for not posting for a while. Had lots to do.

The trauma cat came here a few days ago. We renamed him Moriarty. (Because me and Emilia love Sherlock)
He hasn't been eating and was puking this morning, so I'm a bit worried about him : /

Emilia might be going to bowling with her friends tomorrow. Not sure.
Teri and Mari came over yesterday. Emilia made us all swear not to come out and let her front the whole day. She doesn't want to loose her friends and I understand that of course. But the thing is... Before we "came out of the closet" with DID, I used to do a lot stuff with them, so I've kind of thought that they are my friends too. I hope they'll all accept me, all of them...

ALSO! Thanks for Emilia riding, our body hurts! A lot. And I'm hungry and there is no food.
No pictures because I'm using the wrong computer. Emilia connected our PC to our big tv so I have fallen in love.

Vasku:

So!
Cleaned the house with Emilia's mom. It looks a lot better now.
It's too bad that even thou we have quite many headmates, no-one likes to clean. I mean... Come on! Someone has to love cleaning. Please?

I've talked a lot of deep shit today. With Emilia's cousin and another multiple Min (She's a witch and that's just so cool!)
We've talked about what if one of us starts to date? How would our bf/gf take this? And would they understand that they are dating only one of us?

Anyway, Emilia said she's going to list all the shows she's watched when she has time... That's going to be a long list.
And Emilia is going to go riding tomorrow!
I like horses, but ever since Emilia fell quite badly from one, I've been deadly afraid of them.

And I'm too lazy to get up, so no pictures this time.
Bye!

Emilia:

Okay, it was weird waking up at my mom's. Luckily, Taku had left me a note:

"Good morning Emilia.
Sipi was scared being home alone so she called your mom. I took over and was really surprised to find myself here.
I talked to your mom (Well, she talked and I wrote) and explained that I'm not you. She didn't seem to like me. And why should she? I'm a parasite invading her daughter's brain. Also, your stepdad was angry at me for not talking. He thought I was you and only playing some game. I was really scared and asked your mom to take me home, but she told me to sleep in your room. I would have walked home, but I didn't want to anger your mom and your stepdad.

-Taku"

I don't think she's a parasite. She's something I have created (involuntarily) to protect myself. I like her a lot. And I feel sorry for her.

I think my mom must have explained stuff to my stepdad, because he was more normal this morning.

And now, I'll go eat the stuff I had bought for yesterday. Omnom.

Taku:

So, Emilia was a bit sad that her friends couldn't come over after all. So Sipi took over and she was scared and called Emilia's mom. So now that I took over I'm at her mom's place. I'm getting to know her.

No pictures now.
I'm trying to get in contact with Emilia. I don't know where she is.

Bye and goodnightie.

Emilia:
Was myself for the whole day yesterday :) I'm happy.

And I'm happy, because my friends are coming over today! At least Teri is. Not sure about Mari, but I think she's coming too. I don't know when they are coming thou... I should go and buy something good to eat...
And I'm happy about my tv! I love it!

I dunno, I'm just happy right now.
Oh!
And I got these rings to help people identify us.

I wear the the black one, Vasku wears the green one and Taku wears the pink one. Others are easier to recognize, I think.

Emilia:

Okay, about today. Good things and bad things happened.
Bad things first.
My mom and her husband are renovating their house. My stepdad screwed up something and for some bizarre reason he was angry at my mom. My mom almost cried and she said she's a bit scared of him...

But about the better things!
Went out to eat with two of my close friends, Teri and Mari. The food was heavenly.
Some random pictures from today.

My friend put that on my door. (Yes, we are Sherlock fans) And we renamed my cats as Sherlock and John. I seem to be mrs. Hudson.

My friend Mari is my electric pet!
And I went out and bought a new tv!

It is HUGE!
40", Full HD and all that!

And I'm kind of proud of myself for getting the tv there on my own! All the while fighting my cats. They tried to steal all the small parts.

Well, Bye!

CATS!

Emilia:
I called the local animal shelter and we discussed with the lady there and I'll start training their cats!
I'll take in the most traumatized cats and help them get better before thy can go to their own homes. Those cats are being killed because everyone wants cats that like people and no-one gives the traumatized ones a chance.

The first cat I'll probably be taking is called Rafael. He was found at the waste land place thingey. He's a wild cat so no-one wants him.

And I bet the cats will help me, us too.
Well, I'll be seeing you.

Emilia:

Sipi was out today. On the car back to home.
Mom still doesn't really understand this all, so she left Sipi alone in front of my apartment. Poor little Sipi just cried there until I took over. She's only 5 after all.

I bought a tiger-toy to Sipi. She seems to like it.

Sipi's new toy and my cat Sayori.

Vasku stopped me at the store (Cause she can talk to me when I'm "fronting") and told me that Sipi had said she wanted the tiger. It seems Vasku can talk to everyone.
That's all for now.

At my dad's house

Emilia:
I'm at my dad's house now. I left from granny's place because I'm not good with children and my little cousins were there.

No one's home here at dad's so while I wait for mom, I thought I'd write a little.
It's kind of depressing in here, because my stepmom's mother just died and all her things are here.

My jaw hurst a lot. I have no idea what Vasku has done... I know it's her fault, cause she's the only alter that has been out today and my jaw didn't hurt in the morning.

Tomorrow, I'm going to go help my friend to choose a graduation dress. And maybe I'll make her dye my hair.

Oh, and I'm starting horse-back-riding again. At a new place I've never been to. I'm just afraid one of my alters will come out while riding a horse. I can't imagine Sipi would do. She's afraid of everything, so she'd probably just die...

Well, I'm going to go raid the fridge for anything good to eat.
Bye!

Hello

Hello all!
I am Vasku!
I love animals and plants and movies and games and all that!
People say I seem to be always happy and that's sorta almost true. I'm just very optimistic and I appreciate life.

Anyway, about today. We got some money (A lot of it) and went to shopping! Emilia bought some games:

Mass Effect 2 and Assassin's Creed Revelations! I wanted to buy Mario Party 9, but the store we visited didn't have it. They didn't have much Wii games...

I bought some clothes! 4 shirts and a belt!

I love shirts with special sleeves!
I also bought these really cute earmuffs!

And Fanta lipcloss!
Well, I think that's it for now :D
Sorry for the pictures being so grainy. I took them with our phone...
Has ta la vie~

Emilia:
I want to know what my parents think.

I have told my mom about this. And I gave my father the name of my illness, but I don't know how much he knows.

I would want either one of them to tell me what they are thinking. My mom changes the subject every time I mention my illness or one of my alters.

I'm going to see my father tomorrow. I'm kind of scared. If he googled this thing... But probably he'll ignore it too.

Oh and Taku talked to my friend and made her worry about me. Le sigh. Taku's friend was nice though.

Taku:

Hey all, I'm Taku.
I wanted to introduce myself, but I can't find much to write about. I'm 26 years old and I like everyone. I can't talk, which is unfortunate.
I made my very first friend today :) Through internet.
I like her very much!
Nothing much to say...
I'll write more sometimes!

First post, here goes

Okay... This is my first blog and I'm not so good with this. Honestly, I have no idea how to use this :')
But anyway.

I think I should tell a bit about myself to you my reader, whoever you may be.

I am a 19-year old girl from Finland. I live in my own apartment with my two cats. I think outside I look normal and healthy. But I am not healthy.
I have D.I.D - Dissociative identity disorder. Or Multiple personality disorder as some people call it.
It's a disorder usually caused by a childhood trauma. A person tries to protect themselves by pushing all the bad memories so far inside, that a new personality, a whole new identity is born. Some people say it doesn't exist but to me, it is very real.

I am Emilia, the "main" personality, the original. I love movies, tv-shows, animals and games. There's not much to say about me. I've always had trouble trying to describe myself. I'm normal and boring.

My other personalities... Not so much. They all have their weird little habits. To be honest, I don't even know them all. Not yet at least.

I'll tell a little about the personalities I do know. Hopefully they will write here themselves someday.
So:

The other "bigger" personality in addition to me is called Vasku. She's the same age as me, a bit "tougher" and more energetic. And she's a bit tomboy. I can talk to Vasku whenever I want, it's a bit weird, talking to someone inside your head, but I quite like her. And Vasku promised to write here also.

The one other persona I can talk to is called Taku. She's can't really talk, it's more like I can "sense" her emotions. She's really really kind. The kind of person who wants to make the world a better place. She also promised to write here.

Now the rest of the personas I haven't "met" but people descirbed them to me.

Sipi is a little kid who is afraid of everything. I donät know her age, but she's very young.

There's another kid who loves to play. I don't know her name.

Then there's this rebellious teenager who spends all my money always :( I don't know her name either.

And last one I know about is someone who I know lest about. Only thing I know is that she likes to hurt me. She most recently made a cut on my shoulder. Her I don't really like.

Anyway, that's me and the personalities I know about. There might be more, well, I'm quite sure there is more. I will write about all that in this blog, and if they write too, I can get to know them too.

That's it for now.
~ Emilia