Vasku:

One of my new years resolutions was to write more. Ooops...

Okay so...
In a new apartment now and I love it. It's bigger and cheaper and right next to our sisters' house.
We actually have a bedroom now :D

And better neighbors :3

And I have a boyfriend now so everything is going well ^^
Probably wont be talking about him that much though.
Just have to mention that he's amazing and perfect and stuff <3
And bothering me at the moment.. Hrr...
Only thing is that he lives VERY far away... But he is worth it.
I remember that I used to think no-one would ever want to date me because of the whole DID thing and now that I have him... It feels like a dream. And I'm afraid of it ending...

I'll write about dating with DID later when there isn't someone breaking my concentration all the time.

Well... Not everything is going well... Our sister isn't doing so well and she's in the hospital : /
We are all very worried about her, but I'm sure she'll make it. She's strong.

That's it for now.
Got to go play with that annoying pig.

Emilia:

Warning! I am annoyed and will probably cuss and talk very... Rudely.

I hate my neighbors.
I fucking hate them.
They lied!
They lied that our dog has been barking during the night. They gave me dates and times when she has been barking, but I WAS HOME! And awake. And I think I would fucking hear if my dog barks.

So now I have to move. My mom promised to take care of our dog so I can have a little more time to look for a new apartment. But still...
It's so nice to get evicted right before christmas. Our town is so small that there really isn't many places to move to. All the new apartment houses have rules against pets.

I'm so pissed off I don't even know what to write.
Okay I'll continue some other time. Mom will be here soon.
Bye bye and stuff.

Vasku:

Okay now I need to come up with something to write.

Hmm, well. Our cousin got angry with me. Said I'm an asshole and I don't care (About her or Emilia). Which is kind of true. I don't care about her that much. I hate being ordered around and she thinks she think she has that power over me. She said I'm playing all the time (Kind of true, yeah) though she had played the whole night the day before that. And I was only playing while I was waiting for her to write. So she had to go all drama queen. That's why almost all of my friends are male. I can't stand drama at all.

Aanyway...
Hard to focus with Duke talking random shit in to my ears (I have a skype call open with him).

Uhh...
HOBBIT TOMORROW!!

We're leaving before 7 in the morning to get to the BIG CITY to watch it. Can't wait ;___;
And I asked Whireds to come cook with me but he hasn't answered yet. Dat bastard.

Hmm..
I really don't have anything intellectual to say.
So I'll just shut up.
I think I'm freaking out Duke, talking veeery random shit.

Vasku out!

Emilia:

Okay I'm a bit annoyed.
One thing I keep running into, is people telling me I'm lying.
Like... What the hell? Why would I lie that I'm crazy, complicate my own life and the lives of people I care about? It just doesn't make any sense to me. Do you people lie about something similar so you think everyone around you is lying? Paranoid much?

People use as 'proof' the fact that I can talk with the other headmates. Like I'm not supposed to be able to do that.
So... You are a professional at this? Do you have DID?
Sorry I truly am annoyed... In Finnish: Vituttaa.

I haven't found any scientific text that says person with DID can't talk to the other personalities. And if that's the fact, maybe I have something else than DID?
The human brain is so complex and actually able to do anything. Maybe when I was a child, I was alone and I needed someone to talk to, in addition to someone to protect me. So maybe my brain created someone I can talk to when I'm not 'out'. I've accepted long ago that human brain can never be fully understood. At least not during our lives. Maybe in a thousand years if humans are still alive.

In a more positive news:
WE HAVE A DOG!
It's name is Natasha and it's a mix of many different breeds. She's one year old and very kind, doesn't bark and walks well on a leash. Still needs some house training (it pees inside during nights) and she's perfect.
Also. I've been out a lot because I'm dating now :3
And I am very very happy about it and aldkjalfjga
She brings me so much joy and now that I'm talking about her, I miss her. (I'm visiting my cousin)
Well, I'll see her tomorrow<3
Bye bye people!
I'll go write to the Finnish blog now:
www.notaloneinsidefin.blogspot.com

Vasku:

Sorry again for no updates. Me and emilia are both lazy with these type of thing and others aren't out enough I think.

Okay first!
New headmate!
My friend Ele (Yes I know you're reading this...) named him Will it seems. He seems cool enough. An adult male. Can't really say anything about him. :')

So...
I've been thinking of writing about a bit more serious stuff. You see my sister started to write about her eating disorder and somehow her honesty about all the things that have happened to her was very touching and well... I'll try to be honest and write about stuff.

I have to warn that I ramble and get off point a lot :')

Lately we've been taking steps back with pretty much everything. We've been having trouble to get to our therapy sessions, keeping our home clean and all that stuff. We don't eat enough or sleep enough (well at least not me)
And I've just been very annoyed and depressed for no reason. And I've been drying a lot which is annoying.

A few days ago I was at this place where everyone in the room went around and said what they were the most grateful about. And there was a few people before me so I had some time to think. And all I could think about was the two friends sitting next to me. They had stick with us through the diagnose and everything, so I said I was grateful for my friends no abandoning me. And I don't think I can ever press how much it means to me. We lost a few people, but I don't think they ever were our friends if they would abandon us at one of the hardest times in our lives. Because it was hard. Telling people that you're mentally ill is never easy. It was hard for Emilia the most, cause she was the one who everyone knew, since I always pretended to be her. At first it was weird to be myself and I was afraid no-one would ever want to be with me, that they'd always ask for Emilia. And of course everyone in our family would rather be with her than me, that's something I have to live with even though it hurts. But now I have friends of my own. The closest of my friends being Whireds, Ele and Duke. They're actually my friends, not Emilia's friends who have to deal with me because I happen to be out.
And I love them and I'm so happy to have them. And I feel like I don't deserve them and I'm very afraid they'll some day realize I'm not worth it. I'm stupid that way.
And Now I'm gonna stop pouring my heart here.
See you guys again some other day.

Vasku:
 Someone was sleeping (Emilia I think) and I woke up.
I took a sociopath test. Because of reasons.
The result:
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You are totally scary! I would feel so bad for anyone who lives with you or hangs around you on a daily basis. Stay away from us!

You have 20 points for 24 Questions.You are for 17 % pure!
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Also, something Emilia wrote:

Finns on the internet.

This is going to be quite a long post, but thank you if you read this.

Okay, I’m really starting to worry about Finns using internet and all social medias. And I’m not saying what I’m about to say is true for every Finn, but for too many. And surely this is true for people from other nations, but I’ve mainly experienced it on Finnish sites.

The hate.

The insane anonymous hate.

That’s why I hate Finnish sites where you can comment anonymously.

For instance:

Feissarimokat is a site where they collect funny posts from Facebook.

Pretty much EVERY post has hate in the comments. And it’s not only towards the post, but other commenters too.

I have an example:

The post had a status from a 45+ woman who wanted facebook likes, so she divided her post in to many pieces.

Someone commented that she was trolling.

After that a girl with nickname Sofi commented:” I don’t think many 45+ people know what trolling is, or know how to do it.” (Which to me is a valid point)

Well, then comes some everyday hero who thinks only he’s point an be the right one:

Maverick: “And Sofi is obviously a (a Finnish word that I know no translation for, pissis. It’s derogative, used for teenage girls who are stupid and only care for their image etc.) and has a lot to learn from the world.”

He could have said it more nicely! Like “I think they do”

Why do Finns have to be so negative?

For another example:

I was playing Transformice, an online platforming game where you play with little mice and you have to collect the cheese. There are dirrefent rooms and I was in the Finnish one.

I had been playing for quite a long time and chatting with the other players at the same time and I had fun. But then I said I have to go cause my girlfriend was coming.

Dear lord what shit storm followed.

There was two or thee guys who just wouldn’t believe that I could have a girlfriend (And they had decided that I was a guy)

They were saying stuff like “What kind of loser lies he has a girlfriend in a mouse game?” And stuff like that. And it really was quite mean.

I was stunned. Do they really have so low self-esteem they have to insult others to feel good about themselves? What the hell is wrong with Finns? Or with all those pathetic internet users who think it’s nice to cause trauma for others.

And no I haven’t gotten any trauma, but some have. Some people take it very seriously when someone bad-mouths them on the internet.

I mean. Imagine you had painted something. You used time and effort in to it and you are happy with what you had done. Then you post a picture of it online for your friends to see. And then comes along some shit-head and becomes poor-mouthing your masterpiece. That’s got to hurt right?

And now one could argue that it’s your own fault for posting it online, but you didn’t post it for that guy right? Maybe you posted just so that one friend who lives in California would see it.

Feel free to comment or send me asks if you have experience from internet hate.

-Emilia Of The WolfPack

Oh and:

Mari, Peetu and Whireds saw Sipi for the first time.

Sipi heard they were coming over so she went outside and took our cat with her. There she waited until she got bored and decided to collect flowers (There's not many since we life in the center of our little town. Frankly, I'm just glad she didn't try to take the flowers from the flowers shop next to us.)
She was on the other side of the road from our house when our friends came. Mari yelled "Hi" or something (Most of our friends are kinda loud) Sipi got scared (Since she'd not really allowed to go outside and thought Mari was angry at her)
So she started crying.
Nice little girl.

- Vasku and Emilia